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Right after the graduation of my undergraduate education, I was offered the scholarship to continue in Post graduate degree from the same Uni. I was not the only one that was offered though. My other two housemates also got the scholarship. We were very very close at that time because we have been together since the first day at the Uni. Going dinner together every night, playing Dota during weekend and got scolded by neighbors because we stay up all night, and everything seems perfect.

But, after the first semester of doing research in my Post Graduate study, I went home for Chinese New Year for a week. It was during January 2010. The first thing that I notice after got home is that my dad seemed lost a lot of weight. And my mom cried that night after told me how hard my dad working that time when me and my brother are not around. My heart was really broken to pieces that time and got myself a lot of thinking.

I always want to travel and live overseas since middle school. To know what was like working with big company, having weekend with colleague, meeting new friends, and going new places for vacation. But, I know that I would not get the chance because I could not bear the burden when I know that back at home, my parents have given up many many things working for us to have a better life. To tell you the truth, me and my brother will go to my cousin neighbors to watch cartoon every Sunday in primary school because we don't have 'Digital Parabola' and we didn't have any game console until we were in middle schools. We weren't poor, but weren't rich either. It was because my hard-working dad that I have all luxury today. So, neglecting them just to pursue some teenage dream would be a very foolish and selfish decision.

It was then I have really decided to just quit my study though I got a really good result in the first semester (it's HD). It was not a hard decision, I told my mom not to worry because I would go back to Uni to settle all the things as soon as possible and go back home. My supervisor did ask me to try working the research from home and gave me one semester vacation, but it I think it just didn't work out. People sometimes wondered, why the hell do I go back to a small town where it literally has nothing in it when I could live in a big city where it got everything in it. I always answered it is because of a family. A small town that have nothing in it but family.